Everybody is being rude here....life is hard..( I wanna leave home but they will never leave me) I'm getting hurt everyday...I can't live like this. I wanna die..My life is the most miserable..

Crying makes me feel like I am losing my vision...what do I do?

They read my diaries, they attacked my privacy...I have nothing left. I wanna be happy...( how is this ever going to happen)..

I'm dieing inside.

I'm serious, I can't even call the police ( don't tell me that) because I just can't ( NOTHING WILL HAPPEN)

I just want tips things I can do for myself to relax and feel better emotionally ( this is serious).

How do I feel better?

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The only thing to do in a situation like this is find help. Whether it's the police or CPS, or running away to a friend. If you're not willing to help yourself, you can't ask someone else to help you.

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What age are you. That could determine weather you can leave home?

ok so you must have some hobbies?
you like music?
Perhaps try and combine the too, have some music on while doing a pasttime/hobbie!

you could listen to story tapes to get your mind off things,
I do this every night to fall asleep.

Are you allowed out? go for a walk and take deep breaths of clean fresh air to flush all the bad away?

hope i've helped in some way.

please let me know


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Steps:
1. Establish independence in some way, no matter how small (Think "I am alone inside my mind and my thoughts are my own")
2. Find some sort of low key way to make groundwork for your own independent life.
3.Build on that until you have an opportunity to leave
4. Remember no one is omnipotent. No matter how oppressive they may be, they have a limited range.

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obviously the right thing to do would be to contact the police, but since you don't want to do that. . .  

What age are you. That could determine weather you can leave home?

ok so you must have some hobbies?
you like music?
 Perhaps try and combine the too, have some music on while doing a pasttime/hobbie!

you could listen to story tapes to get your mind off things,
I do this every night to fall asleep.

Are you allowed out? go for a walk and take deep breaths of clean fresh air to flush all the bad away?  

hope i've helped in some way.  

please let me know  

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I will try and listen to stories just like you told me..