ive told my best friend about this.. and she just asked me why, i told her because of control.. i want to be in control of the pain my body has.. i used to cut and she said that she thinks this is just another way of harming myself to feel better..

im comfortable with my body.. i like it how it is..
its just i want to feel like im in control of the pain my body recieves.. its not up to everyone else..

sorry guys.. just had to get it off my chest.

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Dont give up;let go.

if eating 1/4 of dinner isnt harming u then its ok

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The light of knowledge shines on those
who venture into the darkness of ignorance.
You are what you Defend.

My question to you is how is everything at home? How are your relationships with your family members and friends? There has to be a reason as to why your body wants to do this.

What's going on around you is probably what's causing your body to reject the food. Try spending more time with your family and friends; socialize more. Doing this will really help your self-esteem and you'll be able to go back to your regular eating habits.

Also, simply force yourself to eat. You know what the consequences will be if you don't eat enough, so think of it as something that you absolutely have to do for survival.

Post edited at 9:31 am on July 3, 2009 by Valid

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10/22/78 - 1/28/09...My cousin, my best friend, and my brother...R.I.P.

The drama will have ya ass in trauma, boy.

Trust me... Anorexia is horrible, you should go visit your doctor with your friend or parents and tell them how you can't eat and want help.
Just don't leave it too late, do you really want to be fed fat through a tube?... It's not nice.

Pm me whenever you want :)
-Leah xx

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lots of people have been in ur position at one point or another

if eating 1/4 of dinner isnt harming u then its ok

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The average meal is 450 calories so a 1/2 is 225 and a 1/4 is 115?

:/ 115 cals over 2000 ? not safe

1000 is starving